Hey, my long lost Louisvillagers,
I've been wanting to blog again for so many months... But my pessimism about the world has flooded my creative process with doubt, insecurity, and bone-deep sadness.
Today I had a virtual appointment with my shrink, and as she went through the litany of questions she came to--
Shrink: Are you still having intrusive thoughts about past traumas?
Me: It's worse now than usual, yeah.
S: Why is that?
Me: Well, it's hurricane season, and shit is going to go down in Louisville soon.
S: And why does that trigger you?
Me *annoyed because I've explained this before": Because I lived in post-Katrina New Orleans for 10 months. Because there are hurricanes out there. Because we have choppers in the air and military Hum-vees on the ground. Because, like in Post-K NOLA, people here are confused and angry and restricted from knowing the truth."
S: I forgot about that. Shit. I'm sorry. I understand it now.
So this afternoon I made this post on FB about our current crisis as the #BreonnaTaylor decision comes close. I opened it to "public" when an old college friend asked me to, and the comments have been like "drinking from the firehose" ever since. Here's the post with all corrections/ updates as right now with 300+ RTs: